I
always dreaded turning in essays. I felt as though I never had enough
time to do my essay. The truth was, I was scared to even begin to do
my essay. Essays were not my strong point. I had so many thoughts,
but essays required me to present my thoughts in a structured
argument. Whenever I sat down to do my essay, I had no problem
writing about what I wanted. However, the paragraphs in my essays
always overlapped or were disconnected. When I finished to do my
essay, it just didn’t flow.
My teachers’ comments on my essays
were always similar and disheartening. Every time that I sat down to
do my essay, not matter what positions I wrote my essays from and no
matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t seem to do my essay well enough
for my professors. Essays did not seem to come as naturally to me as
creative writing did. Essays required a certain amount of
organization that I did not appear to possess. Before I started to do
my essay, I even outlined what I would write.
The preparation to do
my essay was not a problem. The problem came when I actually began to
write. There was so much that I wanted to say and I kept cutting it
down. However, the more I tried, the more problems appeared in my
writing. I had no one to go to for help and my professors told me
that I should know how to write an essay by this point. They were as
frustrated with my writing as I was. I felt lost and just began to
buy my papers from online agencies. That’s the only option that
appeared to work.
